You can see my previous thread about my mums problem, which got better for a while and has now started getting worse again, but this post isn't really about her, its more about me. I used to have two best friends who would help me through the troubles with my mum, i fell out with one and that relationship is unsalvagable and i have just drifted apart from the other one and feel i can no longer share with her. I don't really have anyone anymore that i could call my 'best friend' or anyone i can completely and comfortably share with. My two closet friends would probably be a couple, i really like them both but they are so couply, and it just so depressing to see them so in love, they are my closest friends and we probably tell each other everything, but i feel like a bit of a third wheel. even though it sounds greedy, i want to be the most important person in someones life, like they are to each other. My mum got drunk the other day and i tried to contact one of them and couldn't, because they were together doing things, and its just difficult to organise my life around when they are together and being dependent on if i can talk to them, if they are together, its hard. i would say they were my closet friends, but obviously they wouldn't say that about me because they have each other, its hard to explain. i don't resent them for being a couple and in love, but i just need someone, a boyfriend maybe, that is as good as he is..... its really starting to get me down
