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life is like a series of photographs you develop from the negatives.
When you need to fly from your home, it's not a home. Home should be where the birds feelings are free not caged.
nobody likes the rain but if you want the rainbow you gotta put up with the rain.
♫ And the stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and in the clouds we miss them in the storms. ♫
To the believer anything is possible, to the sceptic everything is impossible.
"the reason angels can fly is becuase they take themselves lightly"
Stay strong- Keep smiling =] and NEVER give up- there is always hope <3
'It is not the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves' (William Shakespeare)
Stick to the fight when your hardest hit, its when things seem worse that you must not quit
it's about learning to dance in the rain
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
we never notice the beauty around us because we are too busy trying to create it.
People say that it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it is letting go and putting yourself first.
No-one can do a better job of being you, than YOU.
Be strong now because things will get better; it may be stormy now but it can't rain forever.
This too shall pass
We have to learn to dance in the rain
Even on the darkest days sometimes we glimpse sunlight
Sometimes we need to tell our story 100 times
Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark

living with an alcoholic dad

Submitted by strenght on Tue, 07/06/2011 - 19:42

Hi i am 14 and for as long as i can remember i have grown up with an alcoholic. The earliest memory i have is of my mom coming into me in the middle of the night crying saying dad had pushed her on the ground and hurt her head.I don't know why she said that but she always takes it out on me when dad comes home drunk in the middle of the night and wakes me up i didn't say anything just cry myself to sleep listening to him beating up my mom her screams and cry's still go through my head but when i got older i got up and use to shout at him screaming so loud i would hurt my voice he didn't even look at me one time he nearly fell on top of me no care for any one and the my mom would blame me if i got hurt saying it was my fault he got mad i never saw my dad, in the morning he was still in bed when i got home from school he was in the pub drinking and when he slammed the door at 2 o clock in the morning that wasn't my dad it was some monster i never told anyone what happened to me, still don't everyone thinks i'm the happy one and at school i am cant seem to stop smiling but that just a mask i don't know why i don't tell anyone i just too embarrassed i never have anyone over to stay but there was a time when he stopped drinking for about 6 months because my mom called the police on him they just gave him a warning he was still cranky cause he wanted drink but i had fun with him he was actually a dad i remember when i was smaller my favorite thing about Christmas day was the pubs were not open so i had a dad for a day but by that time me and my moms relationship was gone, but after 6 months he was back drinking again it nearly broke my heart ill never forget when he came home staggering in the door not even able to talk, now i don't talk to him he dosn't hit my mom anymore but he is still constantly fighting shouting so loud i have to sleep with my i-pod every night so he wont wake me he sometimes he say's "hi darling" when i don't replay he doesn't even try again justs walks of not a care in the world only thing on his mind drink sometimes i feel guilty then i remember my hole life whats he has done to me and that disappers i actually have so much hate for him i can't control it i throw thing at walls scream i just want to be happy and have a normal life but i guess i just got to get through every day.

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