Hi Laura,
I have moved the conversation over to this forum as it is easier to follow, and to see who has replied to a message..at least I hope so anyway...
No worries about getting back to you :) I am really glad that you feel better today, and I hope you mean that! Yes yesterday did sound like a really bad day for you, and it is definatley good to cry and have a release rather than keeping things bottled up inside..that is a real sign of your strength..and by far not a sign of weakness. I went through a stage when I would cry a couple of times a day and just saw it as a normal part of my life, and I never ever dreamed I would feel so good about life the way I do now. Just the fact that you are allowing yourself to feel weak and admitting to it ..is a sign that you are being strong. It's easier sometimes to hide away from painful things but when you express them I believe it shows true courage and honesty, so for that reason I am going to have to disagree with you Laura and say that even though you are feeling weak it sounds to be like you are being strong. And I don't think you are failing as to me it sounds like you are doing things that are positive for yourself like talking about what is going on in this forum and doing your studys. But if you do get a chance to go to the support group before christmas I think it would be good. Yeh I understand how you feel like that..like your fighting ...its crazy how consuming addiction is and how it can tear a family apart and really rock a families foundations. try as much as you can to focus on the positive things in your life right now...I know thats easier said than done, but maybe write it down.. you know... something good that you want to happen next year ...
Take Care Laura and Christmas can be a really tough time when things aren't going well so if you wanna talk next week come onto the forum.
Emma xx
