Hi everyone Im 19 years old and my mom has been an alcoholic for as long as I can remember. She has been to rehab programs and detox so many times and comes out sober and normal again until about a week later. My parents are divorced and my dad is really sick and in an out of hospital so I have to stay with my mom who is single. My mom works during the day and she comes home and starts drinking but secretly so we dont see her even though I know what she is doing like she says she needs to get something from her car and has a few sips or goes around the back of the house and when i was younger she used to take a glass of diet coke or something to her bathroom and put vodka in it and come back with the empty cup.when she drinks she gets really angry and agressive about the smallest things and its really scary sometimes she blames me for everything, tells me how much she does for me all the time, she threatens me and she calls me names and sometimes I get scared that shes going to hit me or something! its impossible to talk to her at all when shes been drinking cause of what the alcohol does to her.I don't have any other family here that I can go stay with or live with they are all in another country and I dont feel that I am ready to move out by myself yet but I just don't know what to do anymore and I can't live like this anymore its just too hard and I shouldn't have to go through this every night!Any tips or Advice would be great!
